Wake up call

I wake up and want to run.

I wake up and want to go to mom's house, disappear in the ether with the fairies, pretend some more.

I wake up and want to call Jodee and ask if I can follow her around all day, trying to make us feel better.

I wake up and want to merge with Adam, set up our own lab, work is the answer, no more feelings for me at all anymore , ever again.

I wake up and remember about what Wesley did to me.